overdue baby

Waiting on baby … And she’s late

It’s hard to explain to people who haven’t been here, the tricks your mind plays on you when you’ve passed your due date and your baby hasn’t arrived. It’s a tough moment in time, so much anticipation and no action. Every second you’re wondering, is it time? What about now? Will baby ever come out!? What can I do to encourage it? What am I doing wrong? To induce or not to induce?

Dramatic? Sure. But it also isn’t surprising that it’s all you can think about since for the last 9 1/2 months, you’ve been counting down to this one DAY. And once the day passes, every minute feels like another day too long. And if you’ve had an uncomfortable pregnancy (yup, raising both hands here!), the extra hours feel like unfair torture. 

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third trimester thoughts and feelings

Third Trimester of Pregnancy – Hurry Up and Slow Down

Third Trimester, here I come! It feels good to be this far along, feeling proud of accomplishing the task of making it through the first two trimesters. My bump is full and on display and baby is constantly reminding me that she’s very busy growing in there. Strangers congratulate me, friends and family are getting more and more excited for us and Ellie can finally SEE (and feel, as of last week) the tangible evidence of the baby sister we keep talking about.

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fear about having another child

Dear Diary: How fear has played a role in my decision to get pregnant again

I went through about a dozen titles for this post before settling on this one.

It’s clear that the underlying factor in my hesitation to have another child is fear. Fear of the tangible realities – pregnancy discomfort, exhaustion, newborn challenges, financial strain – but also, and maybe more so, fear of the unknown, fear of more change and uncertainty.

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